shook one

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-12-23T02:16:00

2009-12-23T08:16:44Z

ugh. tonight i got in a car wreck. it wasn't that bad but still was more of an impact with another car than i've had before. my car looks ghetto as fuck now. missing hubcap, cracked bumper, cracked lights and dents. gotta love it. almost as much as i love being on academic/financial aid probation. both are really great aspects of my life.

on a seperate note

2009-12-22T10:57:14Z

i've grown bitterly exhausted from the way people use the convenience of the internet as a substitute for actual human connection. i do not wish to meet all my friends online, and pretend like we are such good friends when in reality you will hardly ever know them. it's easy to act like you're best friends with someone online. but then you spend time with them in person and then you realize this person isn't who you thought they were. apparently accepting a stranger's friend request is equivalent to knowing them enough to hand out your phone number. apparently meeting somebody without a formal introduction is still an invitation to add me on social networking websites and talk to me like we've known each other forever. sure, okay, that's just the world we're living in. well i think it's more of a shield that people use to hide behind and i no longer wish to be apart of that bullshit. with each page refresh i find myself more and more confused as to why i really care about what so and so is doing at the moment, and every other fleeting thought that they feel necessary to make sure everyone knows. it's odd, i mean for the most part computers and internet have always been really interesting to me. and it's strange to imagine my life without that. it's just always been a second nature thing. which i feel is common for generation. it's more than that, though. it's the way we now get in touch with people and come to know things. it's as if the internet is a replacement for real life. in fact, that's exactly what it is. i miss how you had to once go out of your way to get in touch with someone. rather than leaving them a comment, or tweeting at them. and all of your mutual friends can be there to witness it. it's really embarrassing just how much useless knowledge of random stranger's lives i have gained. it's just one more addition in the gap between my disconnection from the world.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-12-22T04:40:00

2009-12-22T10:40:13Z

this movie explains who i am

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-12-18T13:44:00

2009-12-18T19:44:45Z

shopping is all i've done for the past few days. more like trying to. i hate shopping more than anything. this year doesn't feel like christmas at all. no surprise to me, since i no longer seem to have emotional connection to anything anymore.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-12-15T14:34:00

2009-12-15T20:34:42Z

every new person i meet is worse than the last.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-12-09T01:19:00

2009-12-09T07:19:24Z

using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to as many people as you like. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)"

Pick your Artist:
smiths

Are you a male or female:
girl afraid

Describe yourself:
half a person

How do you feel?
still ill

Describe where you currently live:
miserable lie

If you could go anywhere, where would you go?
london

Your favorite form of transportation:
how soon is now?

Your favorite color:
golden lights

Your best friend is:
the boy with the thorn in his side

You and your best friends are:
sweet and tender hooligan

What's the weather like?:
paint a vulgar picture

Favorite time of day:
asleep

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called?:
is it really so strange?

What is life to you:
these things take time

Your current relationship:
i want the one i can't have

Your fear:
cemetery gates

What is the best advice you have to give?
what difference does it make?

Thought for the Day:
money changes everything

How I would like to die:
death at one's elbow

My soul's present condition:
nowhere fast

My motto:
accept yourself

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-11-28T05:06:00

2009-11-28T11:06:16Z

tonight was so fucking awesome.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-11-23T04:48:00

2009-11-23T10:48:16Z

sleep is just not an option in college. it's impossible for me to write a paper and do homework online because the social networking clusterfuck is just one click away. and that's when i wind up still here at 5 am. hopefully my old teacher doesn't realize i'm just basically rewording everything on sparknotes.com.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-11-16T02:53:00

2009-11-16T08:53:33Z

Don’t take what I say to bed with you and don’t get used to that which I do, or you’ll only feel used in the end. Don’t weigh your heavy head with those words that I haven’t said. Don’t confuse that which I don’t do with what will be done in time. You’ve gotta wise up, for christ's sake take care of yourself. Cause a dirty boy don’t make clean breaks. Oh Sara(h), if there’s something that you want from me, just ask, you might receive. I’m gonna take some time to sift through this conflicted time and figure out why I can’t sleep. Oh my greed (?) and my guilt have surely gotten the best of me. You’ve gotta wise up, get out of this mess while you can, cause a dirty boy like me don’t fight clean. Oh Sara(h), if there’s something that you want to do with me, just ask, cause I’m up for anything.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-11-12T22:00:00

2009-11-13T04:00:33Z

Now I do as I please, and I lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
I should probably feel cheap, but I just feel free
And a little bit empty

No, it isn't so hard to get close to me
There'll be no arguments, we'll always agree
And I'll try to be kind when I ask you to leave
We'll both take it easy

If you stay to long inside my memory
I will trap you in a song tied to a melody
And I'll keep you there so that you can't bother me

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-11-09T20:18:00

2009-11-10T02:19:43Z

too many people are carbon fucking copies. too many people are not trust worthy. too many people drive me bat shit crazy which is why i am going to be alone for the rest of my life.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-11-09T05:53:00

2009-11-09T11:53:23Z

i just listened to the song predictable about 5 times in a row.welcome to my life.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-11-08T23:57:00

2009-11-09T05:59:33Z

i want to date a guy that dresses really awesome while being smart about the amount of money he spends on his clothes/not being pretentious about the clothes. sweaters, black suits, button ups, driver caps, basically whatever matt skiba wears. but still wears band shirts and dickies too someone who is really passionate about music/has good taste in music but doesn't hold an elitist attitude about it, and can enjoy embarrassing/guilty pleasure bands. i hate when people can't loosen up and just enjoy things because they're too busy judging everything.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-11-08T23:05:00

2009-11-09T05:05:51Z

not letting negativity get the best of me. i would give anything to go on a bike ride to shelby park right now. it feels so good outside.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-11-08T03:11:00

2009-11-08T09:12:15Z

i'm 19. what in the fuck?

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-11-04T03:06:00

2009-11-04T09:07:27Z

i'm going to need for this to be on dvd so that i can watch my life every day.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-10-29T05:11:00

2009-10-29T10:14:56Z

i wish that sleep wasn't something that you needed to have in order to function properly. maybe that's just a sign of how psychotic i really am?

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-10-28T20:54:00

2009-10-29T01:57:52Z

i make a million playlists for potential mix cds for someone that i no longer have a chance with. it's really pathetic

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-10-28T04:31:00

2009-10-28T09:32:29Z

i grind my teeth and know that i'm alone
sidenote: i love gallons of sweet tea, and snuggies. i hate my insomnia and reality.

i heard you drank the ocean dry last night

2009-10-28T07:07:10Z

i need to stop letting social anxiety hold me back from living my life. and i need to not be stubborn. and a lot of other things.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-10-27T03:01:00

2009-10-27T08:05:47Z

today was fucking awesome. the touche amore show tonight was beyond good. there weren't a lot of people there which was really lame i thought but at the same time a lot more intimate and powerful. their singer has so much passion and energy in their performance. they do not have one bad song, and i loved that people who weren't into it beforehand left the show fans of the band. the last song honest sleep was fucking incredible. god, i just can't get over how good they are and how much they are doing for the hardcore scene right now. so many people are into them and i am glad to be apart of it. they're all super nice dudes. and on top of this we were there when the panera leftover baked goods were getting dropped off. devoured those pastries. now i must finish 6 chapters of math homework. watch this video though...

i thought i knew who everybody was just by looking at them. my heart is anywhere but here.

2009-10-25T03:13:46Z

i hate murfreesboro. the time goes by a lot faster living there throughout the week and is making me depressed. i sit in my poorly fluorescent lit room. sometimes i do homework, sometimes i watch movies, sometimes i am on the internet, and the other half i am asleep. i have 0 motivation to do my school work and have not even been to a good portion of my classes. part of me is mad at myself for this because i don't want to fuck myself over. part of me is too apathetic to care. i am trying my best to stay positive. but it's hard when it feels like i'm driving to god damn jail for five days when i go there. in retrospect i can't help but look at the situation and ask myself what i am doing. what is the point? i do not want to be depressed. but fuck that place.

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-10-22T05:16:00

2009-10-22T10:27:52Z

slowly becoming better at controlling my thoughts and my mind and also doing my damndest to get rid of all of the negative energy clouding my life right now. i have allowed myself to get polluted i know but it is also up to me to get over it. that, or i think i am destined to become a philosopher. it sucks because the thoughts in my head are so deep and make so much fucking sense, that i think people would be so intrigued by what i have to say. but when i try to actually say those things out loud to myself, it is embarrassing so i steer clear of it. trying to put it into words just does it no justice, at least i haven't been able to, yet. the critical and analytical obsession over humans has driven me to my breaking point. so ridiculous. i'm trying to get past the bizarre concept of what civilization and interaction has come to be and accept it for what it has become. judging every last thing about a person and trying to dissect their thought process is probably a good reason as to why i have become so poor with my social skills, even with people that i like. i think that there is too much of anything and obviously the reflection my mind has accelerated to has brought out the worst in me. not only that but i'm trying to look past the idea that nothing has any meaning. it makes sense, and is a very realist point of view. i've never wanted to consider myself a realist, though. that's the mindset i sort of transcended into from existentialism, though. i don't think that i'm the only one. that point of view does not correlate with the person i really am and i'm trying to find the meaning in my life again. it's difficult to creep back into that stage, because where i am now it's like the opposite point of view is as if you're hiding from the truth, lying to yourself, etc. and that's not how i want to live either. all i know is that i do not want to live feeling empty and miserable, and that i want to know what it means to be a truly happy person again. it's weird i have found myself at the opposite mind set of what i used to hold, but i have also learned to stop looking at the things as not so much a phase but a pattern and as me, dealing with new knowledge to grow as a person. it may take effort, but it is obtainable to me. here's to hoping i stick with this mentality

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-10-17T03:33:00

2009-10-17T08:33:51Z

how long can i possibly be in this existential crisis?

goodforagalaxy @ 2009-10-16T19:55:00

2009-10-17T00:55:56Z

Learn to be poor yet dedicated, forever. Step away from the computer every chance you can and learn how to be flexible as an artist/designer. Learn art history, color theory, grid systems, typography, photography, and illustration. Work with other artists/designers around you. We all learn from one another. Education is everything, but the institution isn’t. School is great, but retaining information is better. With that said, Art School is great for some and a waiting room for others. It’s certainly not a requirement to be an artist. Once you have a knowledge base, the world is yours.